When my anxious thoughts multiply within me,Your consolations delight my soul.
Working around the house last week, I turned on the Christian music station. I heard this phrase from a song, "No matter what, I'm going to love You." I stopped to glance at the television so I could see the name of the song.
Writing the last post about wasting time with God and Klaus Issler's book, how easy it was to write about resting with the Lord. Life had been moving along in a placid way. No rough waters. Well, okay, not placid. That word would probably never describe my life.
Then something happened. A very tragic thing.
Wow, has it ever been tough to rest in the Lord. Hard to pray. Hard to focus.
A few things I've learned at this time:
1. A couple was with us when we received the news. They did not speak much; They prayed with us but it was their presence, sitting at our kitchen table for hours that meant the most. They did not say, "If there is anything we can do, let us know." I suspect they were asking God to help them notice what to do as that is just what they did. They took care of things that needed to get done. They stopped to listen when I needed to process.
2. I am eternally grateful for some people who let me process both talking to them and praying with them. I am grateful they did not judge me for that need to process verbally.
3. Christian praise music lifts my spirits even as the Words of the Bible seem rather distant and silent at this time.
4. It is hard to rest at times like this. In fact, I am not sure how a person does that. I certainly have not figured it. One night listening to the decade of the 90s in the Psalms, Psalm 94: 19 impressed me but I still did not feel much consolation.
Here's hoping for a smoother transition to a restful state with the Lord today and in the future....
